It’s almost the end of the semester….Physical self recently floats more rapidly than my virtual self, meaning I have to be more realistic on my physical world working on my own businesses and taking care the things that I is “more relevant” to me (it’s actually a really redundant term, since nothing [or everything] is really relevant to one).
Sometimes I feel life is like a magic orb. When business hits, everything suddenly get sucked by that orb, and my concentrations and attention all get sucked into that orb. I found myself inside, and the flow surrounds me is really fast — too fast to feel though. Outside the orb I saw everyone, calm and smoothly moving from phase to phase, point to point. I have remembered that I called that serenes, maybe not…
Sometimes I am really confused by the two different flows in the orb and outside the orb. Like sometimes I meet a no solution math question…Every formula and equation look so right, but answer never comes out. —that to me is like the nature of reality, the more you think, the more confusing it becomes!
……Life is linear, time is linear, and facts are linear. These principles make me crave for balances, the balances for the restless mind, and unsettled internal flows. “You are so confused…” I sometimes hear it from the deepest core of my body.
Confusion sounds like the wrong world to describe my state, but that’s the closest word that describes it…maybe it’s not confusion at all…
The flow inside myself is still chaotic, but to find the true peacefulness, I must close my eyes, shut my ears and walk steadily.
“Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep riding” — Einstein.
